Nostalgia for the "sanity" that was......

During the springtime of my life, a smile was purely owing to feel-good moments; someone was truly fond of you and delighted to be in your company; a friend was happy that you finally met someone special, your career is great et al i.e. it was a heart smile.

Lately however, I’ve been abridged to a paranoid adult who thinks the worst of smiles for the reason that there’s too much phoniness.  Authentic affairs with unadulterated intentions are few and far between.

The contriving and self-obsession in recent times is disquieting; people seem to constantly be up to no good but shenanigans and are insensitive to the fact that they distress others in their bid to gratify their cravings.

It is now commonplace for foes to strike one as being fast friends. I'm lured to inquire why one would endure such a bogus relationship. I mean, from personal experience, my conviction is that feigned emotions are much more draining than bona fide ones. 

Apparently people have a preference for the former and I’m inclined to presume that there’s always an ax to grind! Hence the subjection to these negative feelings lest they fall short of achieving their egocentric aspirations.

Owing to the fact that I suck at initiating companionship, I’ve been overly credulous I must confess. Consequently, when someone aspires to buddy up with me, am excessively hasty to let them. This has undoubtedly gotten me into a great deal of snags.

Of late, friends are circumstantial; they vanish during bumpy rides and lodge for no more than it is beneficial to them.

Envisage this: the relationship you’ve nurtured all this while was just an avocation of sorts for the other party; a supposed best friend is your nemesis! The realization is horrendous and disheartening. Sadly, you catch on only when you’re already cozy and consequently susceptible to affliction.

A colleague once asserted that oftentimes we expose ourselves to this “fake people phenomenon”. Pursuant to him, it is very easy to tell if one is genuine or not because he’s very cautious with his social relations. I vehemently contended that people mastered the art of faking everything it seems so real to the duped. It is really hard, even impossible to ascertain and or distinguish between the false and real acquaintances. You would have to be psychic!

Needless to say, the atrociousness exhibited in this day and age is like a "well scripted" and acted out horror movie. 

I yearn for the virtuousness and realness I relished during my young days. The world was a much better place back then when all my peers and I knew was love. True untainted love at that! Oh how I miss the innocence!

Providentially, I recently got an epiphany of sorts; acumen to try and safeguard me against this facade of benevolent beings. Clearly, it was long overdue. However, like I always say, life is an incessant homeroom; if one is enthusiastic enough, they can never miss the boat in discovering novel and valuable gen.

Till I scribble again, prudence in your regular dealings will come in handy. We can only try!